Elaboration:

I've been debating on whether or not to post here or the BLC forums. I just don't know what's going on with me lately. This will probably be one huge run on post of misery and woe-is-me bullsh*t that I'll look back on in disgust. I've been trying to pop myself out of this funk and get on with the lifestyle change. But I feel like I'm just living on all my bad habits again. I've tried making myself stick with the food plans I've set out. I've tried setting my alarms to keep me waking up early to go exercise. I've tried just getting my mind rid of all this negativity, but it just keeps coming back.

I'm sick of it.